Lost in a daydream.

There are some people whom I tried so hard to please, and there are a rare few who tried hard to please me. I realised that if the two are meant to be great friends or lovers, there is no need to try.

And so I will stop trying so hard to be nice and there for people whom I will never ever be in their hearts. It is senseless to put myself through such futility when I can channel all that to those who have been there for me unconditionally. 

I am not angry, just a little sad that I do not have the ability to turn certain relationships into the way that I'd like. But that is just how it works because there are also relationships that you are in total control. People do it to you and you do it to others, this unfairness is somewhat fair.

Funny how I only see all this now. Life is all about constantly learning and seeing the truth.